Moving On

Let's move. Goodbye to this place, that we grew attached to.
Let's move. Now to a higher place.
While taking the last box out of the empty room, I looked back for a moment.
Times we cried and laughed, goodbye now.

― BTS, Moving On


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Sandglass ― Hourglass

Bagian terberat dari sebuah perjalanan adalah perpisahan. Adanya keharusan untuk meninggalkan masa lalu yang tiada di masa depan walaupun raga, hati dan keadaan tak sejalan, tak pernah terasa mudah. Perpisahan bukan berarti berhenti untuk menyatukan. Semua pasti berubah, mau tidak mau. Semua pasti berakhir, siap tidak siap. Yang pergi akan tetap pergi, walaupun kita telah menjaganya dengan begitu kuat. Dan yang datang akan tetap datang, walaupun kita tidak pernah mengharapkan kedatangannya.

Bagaimana bisa kita takut dengan mengakhiri, sedangkan kita berani untuk mengawali? Bagaimana bisa kita takut dengan perpisahan, sedangkan kita berani untuk saling memiliki? Belajarlah dari semua yang telah terjadi dan mengertilah. Bahwa tak semua jawaban adalah tentang untuk selalu bertahan, melainkan juga tentang melepaskan. Melepaskan genggaman untuk sebuah kesempatan baru di masa depan. Maka, teruslah melangkah meskipun itu berat. Buanglah semua bagian sedih dan menyakitkan dalam hidup untuk menyisakan semua bagian yang terindah. Karena senja mengajari kita untuk menerima sebuah perpisahan dengan jaminan pertemuan yang hangat pada esok hari.

Dan untuk menyempurnakan narasi di atas, berikut video dari sebuah lagu yang sedang saya suka.

Even though you listened to this song without lyrics, it still feel sad.

 *

I remember our first moment. When it seemed like it would stay forever. Your unchanged gaze in front of the coming farewell, even I couldn’t realize it. If I let go of your hand first and say that I have to go, how would you feel when I say I’ll come back again? If I were you, I wouldn’t believe it. Though the sand may fall down and our time may run out. Though time can’t be turned back, it’s okay. Though the sand may fall down and the hourglass may stop, our memories that we’ve made together will be with you, by your side.

I don’t want to leave. I don’t want to lose. The time continues to pass by and we only grow further apart. Even if I hold onto the second hand, the end will eventually come. But as the last station is also the first station, our destiny is that we’ll meet again. Thank you so much. Memories about you will only make me smile. I’ll try to live well. I’ll become a better person and return to you.

When I see you again. When I flip the hourglass again, and we have our new start. We’ll be together then.

― Wanna One (The Heal), Sandglas

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Let Go

Before we say goodbye, let go, but I’m lost in the maze of my heart;

from stereo to mono, that’s how the path splits.

If my fate is to disappear like this, then this is my last letter;

penned words, written then erased feelings for you;

so many to let go, unpuzzle my lego at a level where it can’t return to its original shape;

so be it, don’t cry, I’mma let you go and fly.

Hectic days, keeping myself busy, distraction filled schedule;

burned into the back of my mind like tattoo;

we can’t return to those days, if I could I’d call your name;

no… but I’ll accept your blame, it really is time to say goodbye.

In order to release your hand right now;

I gotta let you know, that I need to let you go;

hard to say goodbye, but I can’t run;

I’m ready to let go.

What have you been up to lately?

Who are you thinking of so far away?

Life without you is really, unbelievable, but even so I still gotta go;

to the person I loved too much, to the red thread that got too entangled in itself.

I couldn't reach you, so I'll walk a separate path, for that reason I’ll say goodbye.

At first every day is like that, beyond the tears hidden in the rain;

I’ll wait for you, let’s start over;

so that in the future, I can meet you again with a smile.

The color of the sky we saw together;

the scent of the path we walked down together;

don’t forget them :)

This lyrics is from BTS, Let Go;

ditulis pada Jumat, di malam yang sebenarnya pagi;
yang saya tidak menyangka, pertama kalinya saya mengoding;
sampai lupa waktu, dan tiba-tiba terputar lagu ini;

keren sekali comeback Jepangnya.

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Hopeless Love

How beautiful that smile is

Time stands still when I see you

How did this love happen to me

The things you say, the moves you make

Make my heart keep pounding and pounding

But I keep my door firmly closed

*

Oh your eyes that are looking at me aren't the same as mine

It is very sad to know how you feel

**

I know it's hopeless that's why when I look at you

Its so hard for me because I love you so much

It hurts to hear that we're just friends

I stand out of the line I'll never cross

Though it hurts, I just can't turn away

This hopeless love

Just a little later, just one more glance

Then I'll settle my mind, at least I believe so

But in reality it only gets bigger and bigger

My feelings for you grow deeper and deeper

Out of my control, I don't get any better

Back to *

Lonely, how I look at you

This hopeless love only hurts

Back to **

Park Jimin ― Hopeless Love

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